The problem comes down to the same big question: Guys didn't come through last year. Will they come through this year?
Coaching. Strife. Injuries. Crimes. Suspensions. All those "reasons", and more, last time.
New Season. New Coaches. New attitude. New health. New chances. All these changes, a fresh start and more, THIS time.
Is it enough? Geez, I don't know...I've spent months trying to harden myself, prepare for a rough road, while the new Head Coach and staff goes through what I told myself would be the bumps and bruises of a "transition year", whatever necessary to rebuild us into a program that annually produces winning teams. Somewhere in there, when I wasn't looking, my outlook changed. In spite of myself, I began to hope. Not the blind, unquestioning faith that we would suddenly return to Championship contention, but nonetheless a more upbeat excitement to see what we MIGHT be able to accomplish, that this season could bring its share of excitement, satisfaction, even thrills to Gator Nation.
I'm not sure if I should be thankful to the new regime for doing enough things right to bring me around to this outlook (if that's even the main reason it happened), or resentful and suspicious that it happened at all! As it is, I'm sort of strung out between two points-of-view: I'm still guarded and cynical enough now to (albeit quite happily) admit my lack of faith, eat my words and climb on the bandwagon if things turn out well, yet also will feel let down and foolishly manipulated if they it goes to sh*t--and will really go after the "usual suspects" if/when they revert-to-type and live down to previous expectations.
Someone once said, "Show me a cynic and I'll show you a disappointed idealist who's lost his faith."
I tend towards cynicism, it has served me well as "insulation", and I'm a bit peeved and concerned to realize it has seemingly deserted me now--but I suppose I shouldn't be surprised. Gator Football is just a couple of weeks or so away, and in spite of everything, I guess there will always be a part of me that BELIEVES; that "part" may grow or shrink as the case may be, but will NEVER GO AWAY. The "cynic" will be there too, though, protectively warning all, not just opponents but our OWN coaches and players as well: "Don't screw around with our hopes and dreams...Don't F*CK with us!".